I don't know whether you'll ever get this letter or not. But, I hope you are reading this and reevaluating yourself. We are all here for a reason and I don't think hurting people is your reason to be alive. I have my own struggles to face, then so do you. I have a whole life waiting for me and so do you. I always considered you as my friend and as a friend, I always wanted you to be comfortable around me. And I think I went out of my way while trying to make you feel comfortable around me. But, I am not here to be judged and I give you no right to judge me either. You sometimes pretend to be my friend so that the world don't hate you. But, deep down a tiny part of me knows that its not true because if it was it wouldn't have hurt so much.
I have had friends who gave me ridiculous nick names, I never was hurt. I knew they cared and likewise I also know that you don't. Even if you say you do, it is not justified. You judge me by my looks, embrass me everytime we cross path. I am not telling you that I am perfect and I don't have flaws. I know I am not perfect and to you I might even be ugly, I mightn't be able to reach your defination of human, but I don't really need you to remind me who I am. I have been told who I am for whole my life, I have been taught who I should be half of the time I am living and believe me I am tired of people telling me so. For you I may just be one of the many victims and I might not be the first thing that you remember after you wake up, so I don't want you to become my nightmare either. You may enjoy seeing me irritated and lost, but your comment suffocates me and everyday I pray that you will someday understand how hard it is for me to get out of bed and face the world when I know I am unwanted there. I am exhausted of hearing your comments in every steps I take. I have been hearing them for years and I can't help it. I can't keep you all happy and guess what? I don't think it is necessary as well. It's not my fault if your world revolves around the idea of making someone feel low about themselves. Why can't you understand that I am not here to be judged?
I don't want to be pushed inside a box just because I don't meet the predefined standards you have set. I have a lot to offer if you let me, but my efforts are neglected and your jokes are laughed at. This might be a small issue and I am making it big, but no one will ever know what I went through, no one will ever get to see the tear I had wasted, no one will ever know the feeling of being alone while being surronded with people and no one will ever understand why I like to keep my doors closed and windows shut, I might be in your place some day and you might be in mine.
I will never know what you have been through and you will never have to face my struggles. So, please stop craping me, stop telling me how I must look, how I must dress, how must I act or even what I must do. Lets face it I might be the worst, but this doesn't make you any better. So if you think that making me feel low shall make you anything near perfect then I am sorry to inform you that you are wrong. I have my own life to live and as far as I see, you have your own too.
So, in a nutshell, can you please mind your own business?
Yours Sincerely,
The person you pushed to the corner.
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